Souji, after a beat, reaches out to gently and lightly place a hand on Alphinaud's shoulder. He's a tactile person and he tends to convey his emotions best through little gestures like this - a little show of understanding and empathy, a little reminder that he isn't alone if nothing else.]
To be honest, I don't know if having an answer to a question like that would make the reality easier to bear.
[It's something he's considered on many occasions before, over a different shade of misfortune. He's asked himself why on many occasions, but does he really want the answer?]
...Would it bring you any ease to know that he was compelled?
When it is not your own death you face, 'tis easy to forgive what they have done—to think it truly was not their fault. But I have failed to consider how the victim in it may feel, as well.
[ And when you're stuck in purgatory like this, there isn't much to do besides think about it a lot. ]
I suppose, however, it would be preferable over discovering I have wronged another.
[Alphinaud's got a lot going on in his little elf noggin...]
Mm... Sure enough, it's much easier to offer that forgiveness when you're at a bit of a distance. It's a terrible situation for everyone involved - those who are spurred into taking a life in a way that they can't control, and those who die for it and have no proper and true outlet for any unpleasant things they may be feeling.
[It's hard to be properly in your Very Valid Anger when your killer was possessed, after all... Or so he figures.]
You've been nothing but wonderful, so I'm sure that it wasn't anything personal. It's easier for most people to harm strangers, so on the off chance that it wasn't the shadows, it was likely just poor fortune.
[Whether or not that's actually any reassurance, though...]
[ He mutters, then trails off. But Alphinaud is quick to shake his head, after. ]
I suppose that is true—if one must choose 'twixt a friend or stranger, then the answer is obvious. While there will never be a clear answer, how I feel from here on is something only I can figure out.
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Souji, after a beat, reaches out to gently and lightly place a hand on Alphinaud's shoulder. He's a tactile person and he tends to convey his emotions best through little gestures like this - a little show of understanding and empathy, a little reminder that he isn't alone if nothing else.]
To be honest, I don't know if having an answer to a question like that would make the reality easier to bear.
[It's something he's considered on many occasions before, over a different shade of misfortune. He's asked himself why on many occasions, but does he really want the answer?]
...Would it bring you any ease to know that he was compelled?
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I don't know.
When it is not your own death you face, 'tis easy to forgive what they have done—to think it truly was not their fault. But I have failed to consider how the victim in it may feel, as well.
[ And when you're stuck in purgatory like this, there isn't much to do besides think about it a lot. ]
I suppose, however, it would be preferable over discovering I have wronged another.
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Mm... Sure enough, it's much easier to offer that forgiveness when you're at a bit of a distance. It's a terrible situation for everyone involved - those who are spurred into taking a life in a way that they can't control, and those who die for it and have no proper and true outlet for any unpleasant things they may be feeling.
[It's hard to be properly in your Very Valid Anger when your killer was possessed, after all... Or so he figures.]
You've been nothing but wonderful, so I'm sure that it wasn't anything personal. It's easier for most people to harm strangers, so on the off chance that it wasn't the shadows, it was likely just poor fortune.
[Whether or not that's actually any reassurance, though...]
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[ He mutters, then trails off. But Alphinaud is quick to shake his head, after. ]
I suppose that is true—if one must choose 'twixt a friend or stranger, then the answer is obvious. While there will never be a clear answer, how I feel from here on is something only I can figure out.
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That much is certainly true. I hope that you can settle on something that isn't too heavy a weight to carry, Alphinaud-san.
[Even if these things are often such heavy burdens - any matter related to death tends to be, regardless of the shape it takes.]
And please know that even if this is a journey you must make on your own, you shouldn't have to feel lonely on your way.
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[Even if they all DIE HORRIBLY, vored by some unknown creature, they're all in this together...!]
Though I know it isn't always the greatest of comforts, I find it helps at least a little.